Now then I realize I have no one else to turn to writing my darkest moment. No one. At all. Except for one girl who I just knew this year you know . Which touched my heart ery ery much. Even those have known for like years they just act like nothing they just think I can handle it they just don't know me well.

I am not really good at hiding my feelings . Those who know me should know that I am that type of girl that gets nervous easily at times, hard to chill down , irrational, not really good at controlling my temper. But people should have feelings. We show it out when we re sad don't we? Why should they always expect us children or teenagers to be happy all the time? Is it our fault to be feeling emotional? Is that ? I doubt that. Sometimes I just feel like nobody in this world really know me . Haih.

They never notice even if I ever tried to make an effort. I know I am not really good at making the first step, but seriously I have tried my best. Its like everytime if it relates to him, I invite them they won't be attending. But did they ever look into the matter from my perspective? They think that I changed. I know . But what I wanna say is I never did change. I am still the old me. It's just that you all become closer and I become further away abandoned by you all. I know you all surely think that you all have tried your best as well. But did you all really? Really care of presence? No. Even if I say I can't attend, you all just never bother to ask me bout it. Maybe at first it was my fault not hanging out sho much with you guys but spending most of my time with my classmates and him. But. Did I do anything wrong that I deserved to be abandoned by you all? I know you all won't feel like dumping me away. But I do. Although you all always ask me out. But seriously, do you all mean it? Hah I know you all dont . Cos I am not important anymore. Instead some of you may even dislike me. I know my presence is not that important anymore that's why I don't go out sho often anymore with you guys. Cos sometimes I feel awkward when I was with you all. I don't know why. Haih.

Sometimes you get something but you lose something at the same time.

Am I the only one feeling tired of studying? Tsktsk

是我固执了吗？

He .
Always saying that he's the one that knows me well the most.
But.
I doubt it.
He never knew that a simple thing he does will affects me sho much.
Perhaps.
Just to hang up the phone after talking to him is always the hardest thing for me.
But.
He always did that sho easily.
I know I might be stupid.
But i just don't know why it's hard for me to say goodbye to him.
Cos i never wanna stop talking to him.
I just want him to pay attention to me when we talk.
But he's always sho tired.
Sleepy.
I know I shouldn't be angry over these small matters.
But.
Becos he matters sho much in my heart,
Even these small things become important.
And he will never know just a flower 'd make me fly up in the sky.
Sometimes,
I just feel like he doesn't really know me well.
Cos.
He will never know all these little things in my heart.

x

Haih Somehow , sometimes i'm confused .
I just don't know what to do :X
HAIH .
I don't know why am I sho down right now . D:
And i just need someone , a real friend to be beside me .
Haih .
I just feel the hopelessness and emptiness in my heart Haih .
Somewhat , Ihavenoideawhattodo ! D:
Haih
Idon'tknowwhyiamshoemo.
But the truth is im very emo .
LOL LAME POST IKR ! Just ignore me . ;x

Seriously?! We're quarreling just because of these 22 burgers ?
What have i done wrong? I really don't know .
Is it my fault to just ask you to buy 1 burger end up come out 22 burgers nobody to eat, isit my fault?!
Yesh If you want to , just blame it all on me , I don't care.
C'mon .

I seriously don't know what to dooooooooo now!
Haihh .
What i can go is just haihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh . D:
I haven't realised i m in sho deeep . :X
Haih .
WHAT SHOULD I DO NOWWWW ? *D:

I just chose the wrong guy once again ?
Why must this always happened to me ? Tsk*
Fml .

Seriously i don't get why does i always need to face this kind of problem .
It's the not first time .
I mean like why do i always picking the wrong one .
Haih .

(&()^(&*$&^#%$@$%@&(()) !

Grrrrrrr .
Now i feel the pain of a drug addict .
ARGH . I miss my phoneeeee .
I hate that thieffff ! D:

My awesome HOLIDAY (:

So well , After my school holiday , i went for a Hong Kong trip with my family .
And it was pretty awesome *hehe .
Had lot of fun with my family .
:D

And hell ya , Got to hang out with the gang today.
Went time square for YouthJam but end up eating in Food Gallery for like three hours *;x
Watched kungfu pandaa *Nyehehe . (: Well, actually i wanted to watch insidious ! :(
*HAHA . Anyway , planned to hang out with chiaying michelle them , But nobody plan bout it . Tsk .
Perhaps we can only hang out after my camp Aiks . :D
Anyway , I have souvenirrr for everyone . Stay tuned ! :D

So there's still a week left right . GAH ! I love holiday . I mean who doesn't right? *:P

It's always better to know nothing than knowing something .
Cos you don't needa make a decision .
GRR .

I just can't believe what i have seen .
I have no idea on what should i do.
Maybe i shall observe and wait for the next step?
I'm scared . Should i tell the truth?
But would it hurts ? Or it would turn out better? IDK .
Grrr .

Leo Leadership Camp :D

Well Erm , I just came back from our Leo Leadership Camp .
It was awesome . I didn't expect much at first.
When i got my namelist for my group, i was like straightaway very DOWN .
Cause i don't know anyone in my team . Hehs.
But from time to time , we get along and know more about each others .
Well , made alot of new friends actually .
Met Caster , Ling Jie , Elaine , Nicole , Nicholas , Abel , Yun Ni and alots la .
haha Overall it's really a fun camp la actually .
haha . Especially when we went for outdoor activities :D
Hehs .

GAH . Photography is my life .
Life would be colourless without photography .
Oh ! HOW MUCH I LOVE TAKING PHOTOS ! hahs . :D

Guys are always like this .
Before they got you ,
They are willing to spend more time on you .
Concentrate on you .
Give away all their hearts .
Never let the girl waiting .
But when they got you ,
they let you wait instead.
And they don't pay attention to you .
They don't appreciate it .
So, if you're a guy , don't do that ._.

Random .

A guy that makes a girl cries is definitely not a good one .
Come on . Think about it .
Don't always demand your girlf to something that they don't like it .
Or ask them to change into someone which are not actually them .
You should just love the way she is !
Gosh . Stop it and make my darling crying over you .
Why do guys always make girls cry?
When they don't think it's their fault at all .
Won't you feel guilty ?!
Guess what, if you actually make a girl cried before, you should change by now . NEVER MAKE A GIRL CRY . :D